Left in Limbo

How stuck in Limbo feels like?

There are many stages of depression.

In many respects, when the worst has gone, when a depressed individual is better, but not completely well, the most awkward stage of depression is. Our thinking about this stage is stunned by the ongoing dominance of the depression disease phase. Depression is the disease in complete bloom, the acute phase, first and foremost. But when depression is in its twilight, it’s a kind of conceptual limbo when it slowly fades into a normal poor mood.

Every day I wake up and feel empty. You don’t know what you really want.

I felt very still and empty, the way the eye of a tornado must feel, moving dully along in the middle of the surrounding hullabaloo. – Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

Feeling empty is frightening. Why are you feeling like this? Feeling empty inside can make you feel helpless, like nothing that you can get rid of. You may find it difficult to determine why you feel this way and that’s all right. You have the right to your emotions, including experiencing nothing at all. You can attempt to blame your emptiness for internal variables. This makes sense because from this unpleasant state of being you want relief. You’re uncomfortable with the emptiness you think and not like yourself. Your emptiness is not caused by external variables. It’s not simple to get rid of emptiness. It requires time to get to the root of why you think this way and work through your issues.

You keep overthinking about everything.

Whether they’re picking up on a mistake they made yesterday, or they’re worried about how they’re going to succeed tomorrow, worrying thoughts plague over-thinkers. They are left in a state of continual distress by their inability to get out of their own heads. While everybody over-thinks stuff once in a while, the continual barrage of ideas may never seem to be silent to some individuals. Their internal monolog involves two ruminating and worrying patterns of destructive thought.

You don’t want to meet or talk with anyone.

Most individuals think depression is equivalent to “really sad,” and unless you’ve experienced depression yourself, you may not understand it’s going so much deeper. Depression is expressed in many distinct ways, some of which are more evident than others. While some individuals find it difficult to get out of bed, others might just get to work well, it’s different for everyone. Here are some examples:

  1. Some people do not realize in social situations that I’m withdrawing or that I don’t talk much because of depression. Rather, they believe that I am rude or purposely antisocial.
  2. I’m struggling to get out of bed for hours at times. Then it’s exhausting just to think about taking a shower. I’m prepared for a nap if I manage to do that. People do not know, but there are exhausting anxiety and depression, much like a real physical battle with a professional boxer.
  3. It’s because I want someone to tell me I’m not alone when I reach out when I’m depressed. Not because I want attention.
  4. To isolate myself, not to live up to my working capacity owing to the absence of interest in anything, making self-deprecating jokes. A lot of times before I said,’ I laugh so I don’t cry.’ Unfortunately, it’s all too true.
  5. I don’t like the phone speaking. I’d rather write. There’s less pressure. It’s also anti-social. Not because I don’t like having people around me, but because I’m pretty sure everyone can’t stand me.

You just want to be alone.

For many individuals with significant depressive disorder, putting yourself in “solitary confinement” is an all-too-unfortunate symptom. And since those with depression generally just want to be alone, it can be a hard trap to break out of depression.

You always think that you are the worst and everyone is better than you.

Wanting to be liked is very human. Isolation to our mental health is hazardous. But if you betray yourself in order to make individuals like you, this will cause issues that are at least as bad as they are worse. We also need to be genuine, believe and live in our own distinctive manner, deep inside of us, along with our need to be liked. Nature produced us this way so that with the remainder of the herd, we could think critically and create creative alternatives instead of running headlong across a cliff. The human race would have died out a long time ago if we all believed alike.

You can’t control your emotions.

Have you ever said anything that you later regretted out of anger? Let’s be afraid to speak to you about taking the risks that could benefit you? If so, you’re not on your own. There are strong emotions. Your mood determines how you communicate with individuals, how much money you spend, how you handle difficulties, and how you spend time. Controlling your feelings will assist you to become stronger mentally. Fortunately, in controlling their feelings, anyone can get better. Like any other ability, it takes training and commitment to manage your feelings.

You realize you lost interest in everything and everyone, even the one you love the most.

Anhedonia [1] is one of the major depressive disorder (MDD) symptoms. It is the loss of interest in operations that were earlier rewarding or pleasant. Clinically depressed people lose interest in hobbies, friends, work, and even food and sex. It’s like the fun circuits of the brain are shut down or short. But are they? Some specialists describe a hedonic feature as the complete quantity of enjoyment from a single activity that can be gained. This hedonic ability may be reduced by depression.

But depression may not completely shut down circuits of enjoyment. An alternative theory indicates that anhedonia is not caused by a decreased ability to experience enjoyment, but rather by an inability to maintain healthy emotions over time. In other words, pleasure may be completely experienced, but only briefly— not long enough to maintain interest or participation in the nice stuff of life.

I hope this article can give some visual about how stuck in Limbo feels like. Stay strong…

  1. Schlaepfer, T. E., Cohen, M. X., Frick, C., Kosel, M., Brodesser, D., Axmacher, N., … & Sturm, V. (2008). Deep brain stimulation to reward circuitry alleviates anhedonia in refractory major depression. Neuropsychopharmacology33(2), 368.

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